20 April

SQUEAKIN’ THRU WITH A D-

Thinkin’ a lot about Death lately.
I don’t know.  No one knows.
How boring it most likely is.
No nothing.  No thought.
No pluck on the guitar string.
No bird call.

I have some thoughts about Life—
how there is a spirit of the living
that visits some more, some less.
How when it comes it surprises so
startling us from our sleep.

“If you eat of this fruit
you will surely die.”
We surely did.

Death may be harder to escape
than the ol’ mundane.

Is Death populated?
Spirits hanging out like old coats
musty, bonded by evaporating memory
and if you, or I, or Life, were to touch one
would it disintegrate with a puff:
remnants and dust?

Living, women praise the creation,
worshiping, perhaps, the Mother;
the men, those that care, reach forever
for the something behind the everything.

I called my doctor on the phone.
He was surprised to hear from me.
I said I didn’t die
but I couldn’t say what saved me.

19 April

DEEPER ‘N DUSK

Death is honest.
We know what death wants.
We don’t know what death wants.
Why should death bother with us?
What do we have to offer?
What accident led to life?
Why should we, of all people, be alive?
Is all of space, the unutterable
immensity of it, shot through and through
with the linkages of love?
You and I and the hungry half-alive see
     dissolution accelerates.
     Death will make a deal.
Life makes a deal.
It’s actually very simple.
The subtle mind looks too deep
but silence reveals all.
The old man in the wheelchair
gazes out the window
at the morning. Watches.
What does he see?
He practices stillness.
He practices solitude.
He is a garden
     after harvest.
Decaying plant life
is buried by leaffall
in the mouldering that feeds the soil.
Ouroboros.
Loneliness denies us life.
Solitude prepares us for death.
Death, at least, is honest.